Chuyen Tau Dinh Menh Oan Nghiet

The Potentially Predestined Fate Boat

In the 1945 to 1954,there were several tenth million Vietnamese people evacuated from the North to the South by an ideological war between the North and South people. Since then the Vietnam country had been cutting into two parts by the Hien Luong bridge in the Ben Hai river.There were a lot of innocent Vietnamese people were killed by the North communists.
After the 1950s, the North communists attacked continuously the South in order to take over it.When they completely occupied the South Vietnam in April 1975,the Vietnamese communists have governed the Vietnamese people by bayonets ,rifles, harassed policies ,and they have treated cruelly, tortured,persecuted,and terrorized the Vietnamese people ,especially because of their religious and political beliefs,and they have been suffered economic hardships over the last 34 years.That is why they have risked their lives by small fragile boats and rafts to escape the V.C 's prison systems for five decades. Moreover, the V.Cs have forced all the Vietnam Republic Officers and soldiers to concentrated camps.Most of them were killed and some others were tortured and imprisoned to death.My family was a victim and witness of the V.C's violence, too. To fulfill their aspiration for liberty,the Vietnamese people had found every way to escape the V.C prison systems.They disguised themselves like some farmers to cross the Vietnam- Cambodia frontier.Some people crossed by walk in the forest and some others went by small fragile plastic cans and boats.Most of them were intercepted by the V.C,Cambodia,and Pol Pot armies.They were raped,extorted,imprisoned and killed.There were several hundred thousand people died silently in the sea.Most of them were killed by Thailand pirates.Luckily,I escaped from the death after a cruel torture in Cambodia prison. Seven days later, i decided to escape with some my imprisoned friends to cross the Cambodia-Thailand border.On the way to flee,some imprisoned friends were arrested again and tortured to death.To fulfill a long hard trip,I went to Kongpongsom harbor to sell some gold in order to buy some dry provisions.Two days later, I continued my hard and dangerous trip.I stayed up all night to go down a small fragile boat with 30 Vietnamese people and two Cambodia ones.We had to sit up with a very small and narrow space with a crowed people.We departed at 3 a.m from Kongpongsom harbor to Thailand. It took about two days during the boat running on the sea,I had mixed feelings.I really felt so happy and sad when i left my country.I was happy because i had escaped the blood-thirsty V.C regime.I was sad because i left all my intimate relatives away in Vietnam.When my emotion was stirring and jumbling,suddenly my friends called me and they noticed that the boat's engine was out of order.We tried to repair it,but some parts of engine had broken.Then we started the fire to call a near by boats or ships to rescue us,but no one answered.We were waiting in a hopeless situation.Our boat had floated on the sea for three days, we had no food and medicines.Some people prayed,some babies cried for thirsty milk ,and some others screamed for panic.Some women decided to cut on their fingers and wrists in order to take their blood to feed their babies.Most women died for losing blood.We prayed and cried silently.Then we tore our clothes to make a sign"S.O.S",we painted it by our blood.
Three days later,while we were still waiting in hopeless situation, our health was more and more bad to worse.Most of us were exhausted by a long trip days without food and drinking water.Some women who survived were a high fever because of their injuries.They died after a few days when they lost their blood.We had prayed for them and we threw their bodies into the sea.One day later, I was exhausted too,and I was unconscious.A fanciful scenery with sufferings and deaths began appearing in my mind.I tried to forget that perspective,but it always appeared in my memory repeatedly.I cried secretly and prayed to rest in peace.Suddenly, the infuriated storm waves sank my boat to the bottom of the sea.Some people had screamed in panic and hopeless situation.They had slept in silent forever in the sea.Fortunately, I was survived by a small raft of the boat.I had tried to swim to the sea port land,but neither port nor land were seen.
Three days later,I awoke in a dispensary of a small Thai village after i got infusion and some soup.When i woke up on the patient's bed,i didn't recognized that where I was.Two weeks later,the Thai polices referred me to a Pha nat Nikhom refugee camp when i completely recovered .
In the refugee camp, I had suffered the hardships.The real suffering prospect appeared in front of me.I had faced with many difficulties.I couldn't stand with those prospects,so i was obsessed, depressed and I was mental.In 1996, I was forced repatriation to Vietnam,the place that the Vietnamese people had paid by their lives to look for freedom.I had disgusted the V.C regime.The place that I left everything away.Since then i felt sick of life to live any more and i had surrendered myself. It really was my disastrous destiny.
To be continued...